Today we began our 2nd try at IUI by getting my baseline labs, including an ultrasound. I have 15 potential follicles on my right side, and 6 on the left, and I start taking the Letrozole Saturday. I don’t know why, but the first ultrasound of a new cycle is always depressing for me. I guess I still have lingering feelings of disappointment from the failure of the previous cycle. Plus, this time around there is a lot at stake since we know this may be our last shot at this for a long time.
I can tell the stress of all this is weighing on me, because today my heart was aching fiercely, and I don’t mean that in a sentimental way; rather, my heart literally hurt. I’m not sure if I’ve ever mentioned this in a blog post before, but I have 2 heart arrhythmias: sinus node tachycardia and premature ventricular contractions. Sinus node tachycardia basically means that from time to time, for no reason whatsoever (although stress can exacerbate the problem), my sinus node shoots too much electricity through my heart causing it to suddenly start beating incredibly fast. My resting heart rate has risen to almost 200 before in a matter of minutes. When this happens, there is really nothing I can do to slow it down again–I just have to wait it out. Typically, this does not have much of an effect on me, other than I may start sweating and feeling short of breath, and it most likely is what causes the premature ventricular contractions, which is just when your heart skips beats. However, I have had a couple of situations where I have passed out from the tachycardia attacks, which can actually be a good thing, because passing out causes my heart to reset itself and start beating normally again. The worst the tachycardia has ever gotten was when I started hallucinating due to the lack of oxygen getting to my brain. I had to call an ambulance, have my husband come home from work, etc. Anyway, all that to say that my heart was skipping beats a lot today and my heart rate was a little too high for comfort. I know it’s from stress, so I need to take some time to rest and get myself emotionally and spiritually prepared for this cycle. All I can say is I am REALLY looking forward to the weekend!
Fortunately for me, I had the opportunity to go to our friend’s house after my doctor’s appointment so I could take pictures of his Dogo Argentino puppies for him and record video footage of his dogs for his website. If you haven’t noticed from previous posts, I love dogs! It’s so true: dogs are incredibly therapeutic, even if they aren’t your own. By the time I left his house, my heart was beating normally again. It sounds crazy, but it’s true. I mean, who doesn’t feel good after seeing cute little puppies? Here are some pictures of his precious 3-week-old puppies:
Pictures courtesy of Dream Keepers Kennels.